They say people never change, that we just grow up. They say that people never forget their old habits. They say that no matter how much you try you will always be THAT GIRL or THAT GUY. Sometimes it’s harder for me to see myself under a different light, or see myself as different to what I am now. Not realizing that bit by bit I’ve become that monster I once despised. And I’ve tried. To see myself not only differently but equally. Equal to the girl who sits at the front of the class, equal to that beautiful stage dancer, equal to that model on the cover of a magazine, equal to the girl next door with the long curly blond hair. But while closing my eyes and entering this year with a smile erased from my face, and with the golden light of my heart dimmed to a dark shade a gray. I walk into this traumatic year the demon I subconsciously always wanted to be.

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I guess this is me.. in words.

So I guess I have a lot of thoughts and it's kind of hard to put them all together. I'm almost 16 years old and I go to high school. But if you think this is going to be one of those cheesy "omg hes sooooooo cute!" type of blogs. Yeah I know I'm young, these feelings are all hormone crazed teenager feelings but I can assure you I won't present it to you in a manner so uncivil. All these posts in one way or another piece together into a story. My story. But remember, things aren't always black and white like they seem to be.
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